Tuesday, June 30, 2009

【歌词片】眼泪笑了~刘力扬

歌词:歌曲:眼泪笑了
歌手:刘力扬
刘力扬 - 眼泪笑了
作词:蓝小邪&严云农
作曲:郑楠
专辑:我就是这样


比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

Saturday, June 27, 2009

【分享篇】忘记其实很难

忘记如果那么容易,
那么世界上就不会有那么多痴情男女!
忘记如果那么轻易,
那么人世间就不会有那么多旷男怨女!

一段曾经在心里根深柢固的感情,
纵然它已经成为过去,
但是在未来的日子里它仍有意无意就会出现。

当我们忙碌是,
就会短暂忘记那段难忘的过去,
当我们在一个空档时,
一不小心看到某件曾经在记忆中出现的人事物,
往事好像被翻了出来,
片刻瞬间的出现在我们的脑海里。

时空的替换还是无法替换我们空虚的心灵,
它只是带走了我们的青春和岁月,
它留下的只是沧桑和思念。

我们能够找到一份填补我们空虚的心灵,
但是却无法找到当初根深蒂固那种感动的爱情;
我们能够找到一份滋润我们心房的爱情,
但是却无法重新找回最初感情的那份幸福。

不肯放手,
伤的更久,
对方不好过,
自己又能得到什么?

不要再苦苦逼迫对方留下来,
也不必追问任何不爱的理由,
当对方执意分手,
就让爱随风而逝。

他/她得到他/她想要的,
你得到自由。
也许他/她会后悔,
但你不必对他/她的决定负责。

而你,
却必须对自己的人生负责啊!
因为,
忘记是一件很困难的事,
也许当初要结束可以很洒脱的说再见,
也许当下要画句点时可以好聚好散得道别离。

但是我们却不知在往后要忘记一段感情的日子却是如此困难,
在每一份重新的幸福都会不知不觉的浮出以往的影子,
在每一段爱情中都会不经意的比较。

因为失去的东西特别美,
因为留下的是没有失去是的比较,
也没有失去时的回忆,
在决定要说再见时,
也许可以在很短的时间,
但是要找到一份相同的感情是一件很困难的事,
因为每种组合只会擦出一种火花。

每一段感情也只会有一种感觉,
而且那种感情是不能套用,
也不能重复,
留不住的故事往往是最美的,
失去的故事往往也是特别美的。

所以,
每个人都要懂得珍惜当下把握当下,
一旦失去是无法再重来的。
如果没有选择,
生命是一连串孤立的片刻。
靠着会议和幻想,
许多一一浮现了,
在消失与浮现不断地重复中获得解放与安慰。

当失去了,
就别再执著。
放下这一段感情,
并不到表要忘记这一段感情。

这或许是你最美好的回忆,
但是过去了始终是过去了,
放开,
才是最好的。

Friday, June 26, 2009

【分享篇】失恋了~?

最近很多朋友都失恋了。

到底是什么事啊?
是失恋季节吗?

我发现,
很多男生,
都很喜欢问一些问题。
我是“这样”的吗?
我是“那样”的吗?
这样那样,
都是在女生的口中得知的。

而他们把这一些,
都放在心上,
到处想从朋友身上得到答案。

其实,
这些不管是不是真的,
都是女生的借口,
来掩饰不爱你的事实。
为什么男生还要转牛角尖呢?

一个真正爱你的人,
不会因为这些问题,
而对你冷淡。
她们会让你知道你的问题,
另一方面会迁就你,
会接受你的缺点。

如果一个女生希望你变成她心里那样的人,
那还有什么意思呢?
她并不是爱你,
而是把你变成她心目中的他。
如果你的改变,
并没有全面,
当她遇到一个接近她心里的他时,
她随时都会离你而去。

分手了,
当然还是会想念啊。
毕竟在一起的时间不短,
在一起开心过的日子,
怎么可能会忘呢?
分手了,
可是还是曾经拥有过,
那些回忆是不会不见的


我就不相信分手不久,
就会没事了。
她是你的回忆,
不是说要忘就能忘。


可是并不代表一定要把她忘记,
不一定要把你们之间的回忆给抹去。
曾经出现在生命里重要的人物,
可以把她放在心深处,
当成美好的回忆,
那不是很好吗?

想她,
就不要逃避,
痛快的去想。
越是逃避,
会越难过的。

想归想,
可是不要执著,
不再执著她的优点,
不要再执著任何事情。
当你执著时,
连时间也要向你投降,
那么无论你花多少时间,
还是没办法痊愈。

我有看过好多很好的文章,
或许能够帮你们治疗情伤吧,
我会慢慢的放上来,
希望可以帮到你们。

大家一定要努力哦!
失恋每个人都会经历,
就让朋友和你们一起走过吧,
千万不要一个人,
要记得,
身边有很多关心你们的朋友,
他们也会希望陪你们一起度过的。

~Week 4~

Ya. Week 4 already passed..
Week 5 is coming.
But I am still doing nothing.
Study, assignment, final year project.
So many things, but seems like I still haven't back to real life.
This week, I start can see many friends' face start to have the stress face.
Because from this week onwards, we will all be very busy until this semester end.
Today went for a movie at Tropicana City.
Transformer.
It release on Tuesday night.
That night, the GSC cinema server face overload problem and the server down for whole night.
Until now, the server still haven't recover yet.
This weekend, Sunday, cousin will back to Perth, Australia for her study.

Monday, June 22, 2009

【心情篇】没用

又是糟糕的晚上。。

为什么我要那么激动?
为什么我要说出这样毒的话?
为什么我要发那么大的脾气?

明明知道那是我的亲人,
是不应该这样说的,
可是为什么?

不应该说的我都说了,
我什么时候变得那么没有分寸?
为什么要下这么毒的定论?

我是怎么了?
为什么事情发生了那么久,
我还是没能找出解决方案?

而我竟然把错都推在当事人身上。
为什么我会变成这样?

我讨厌现在的我,
我讨厌没用的我,
我讨厌这样说话的我,
我讨厌推卸责任的我,
我讨厌我讨厌我讨厌!!!

问了一千次一万次,
我该怎么做,
我还能够做些什么,
但是始终找不到答案。

我,
就是那么没用!!
好讨厌自己!!

无路可走~~~

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Free Movie~ Tropicana City

Starting from yesterday Saturday, got 3 days free movie in Tropicana City, GSC.
But is not the latest movie.

Since everyone is not interested, so I also didn't put mch hope on it.

Actually Saturday morning, plan to have hiking at APEK Hill.

But we cancel already at Friday night due to some reason.

Luckily we cancel the trip because raining heavily in the morning.

When chatting with Chris yesterday morning about the free movie, he said today go watch with me.

Whole day just face laptop and didn't start my assignment at all.

Evening, Chris called me, asked me whether I watched Ip Man already or not.

He said his friend, Yan, go to retrieve the ticket already, 11pm.

Since I haven't watch that movie, so I go with them.
The movie is very nice.
True historical story, the action and effect also very nice.

I am impress with the effect.


Since last night already go watch the free movie, so today we didn't go watch already.
Chris and his brothers go to take photograph, portrait.
Sometimes I am thinking, photograph, is also a very good hobby. Huwi Yee like it also.
But the camera, is very expensive, expensive than a laptop.
The hobby is just for rich people. @@''

Today, Sunday, is Fathers' Day.
Happy Fathers' Day to all the fathers in the world.

All children, remember to show your respect and filial piety to father, and also mother.


Today also is grandfather's birthday.

Last week, grandmother's birthday, all her daughter and grandchild celebrate with her.

Today, all daughter and grandchild celebrate fathers' day with grandfather.

These 2 events, I didn't attend.
I am regret.
But what to do?
Very lucky that, cousin who is back from Australia for one month holiday, is here to celebrate with grandparents.
Because she may be one year just back once.

But I am different, I will go back more often.


Grandmother gone through an accident yesterday.

Luckily not very serious.

Just skin injured.

Wish her get well as soon as possible.


Happy Fathers' Day to my dad, I love you so much.

Mum, I love you too.. ^^
I miss you all, my dearest family.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

3rd week

Friday 19th June 2009

Lately, I always not feeling well.
The sickness that I gone through in secondary school came again.
Many nights can sleep well.
Can't breath, suffering.
Is because of stomach, or stress?
Assignment and test start to come, but I still no progress in all my study.
Still in holiday mood. Sweat..

Finally the PTPTN loan release yesterday night.

Today, we plan to go jogging at Taman Jaya.
So around 5pm, Kean Aun come fetch me, and go fetch Huwi Yee.
This is my first time go the the taman there.
It is really a nice place for exercise.
Most of the fitness equipment are prepared.
There also have the playground for children.
Around 6pm, more and more people there.
Most of them are family, parents brought children to play in the playground.
There is such a nice place for a family.

By the time we prepare to go back, we saw a lot of racing car there.
Some people take photo with their professional camera.
All the racing car have numbers on it.
I think may be is competition.

After the walk at Taman Jaya, we decided to go to Paramount Nasi Lemak which is very famous and delicious.
After dinner, we went back.

The next plan is hiking tomorrow morning.
We plan to go to APEK Hill which is situated at Cheras.
I ask Chris to bring us there and join us in this hiking.
He promise to go with us last night.
But today, I ask him where can we meet, he didn't reply me.
So all of them decide to cancel since everyone already tired.

Need to start my assignment, study and all that le..
Aikz.. cannot be in holiday mood ar.. =.=''

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

【分享篇】不要忽略了身边爱你的人

他,忙于工作,每天早出晚归。

她,结婚后就辞去工作,每天呆在家里。

他,拼命工作,努力赚钱,为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她,辞去工作,全职顾家,为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她,她很爱他。

他很老实,她对他在外面工作很放心,绝对信任他。

她很独立,他对她照顾自己很有信心,绝对放心她。

每天夜里,当他夜归时,煲里还有温着地炖汤。

每天早上,当他起床时,桌上都有温暖的咖啡。

这样的日子,从结婚后开始,持续了三年。

她从不过问他的工作,只是知道他在越升越高,日子渐渐富裕起来。

他从不过问她的家事,只是知道家里井井有条,家庭依旧和谐幸福。

他不喜欢电脑,每天工作就对着电脑 N 小时了,回家决不碰电脑。

她不喜欢电脑,每天却在独处的时候对着电脑 N 小时,非常忙碌。

直到有一天,他接到一通电话。

“ 请问是陈先生吗?你的太太晕倒被送入院,她的子宫癌已经是末期了,请你来见他最后一面。 ”

晴天霹雳,他赶到医院,看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。

她看着他,对着他微笑,告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。

他失去了生活中心,他失去了人生方向,他失去了他爱的她。

他后悔,他懊恼,他怨恨他自己,为什么没花多一点时间陪她,去了解她。

妻子出殡后,他独自回到空无一人的家里,厨房里不再有炖汤。

他坐在客厅里发呆,想哭却哭不出来。

这时,他看到了客厅里的电脑,他想看看照片,这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。

第一次开启家里的电脑,看到桌面上有个叫《老公,是我》的文件夹,里面有 1095 个录影片段。

电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔 ~

扬声器传来熟悉的声音

他的眼泪,终于决堤而出。


“ 老公,是我啦 ~~ 从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧 ~~ 不过你要答应我,一天只能看一个哦 ~~ 我们终于结婚了,你知道吗?能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福,我会把每天发生的事情记录在一段录影日记里,几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看,一定很有趣的 ~................”

影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情,他看了看影片日期,结婚的那一天 ~

第一次,他违背了深爱的她的意愿,一个又一个的影片看了下去 ~

“ 老公,你很忙碌,要好好照顾身体哦 .........”

“ 老公,今天难得你陪我去购物,我好开心哦 .........”

“ 老公,一周年纪念日了,谢谢你的礼物,对不起还没能给你生个孩子,我们再努力吧 ......”

“ 老公,我身体很不舒服,不懂为什么常常会肚子痛,明天我自己去看医生好了 ......”

“ 老公,医生说我患上了子宫癌,建议我切除,你说他是不是傻的,我还想要孩子呐 .......”

“ 老公,我有乖乖做治疗的,药都有吃,不过我不要做化疗,剃了头就不美了,你一定会笑我的 .......”

“ 老公,医生又叫我切除子宫了,他说不然就太迟了,我痛骂了他一顿,这家伙不知好歹,总是要破坏我们的计划 .......”

“ 老公,我看我应该不怎么行了,请原谅我不告诉你,因为我想你永远记住我美好的一面,这些事情我自己来就好了 .......”

“ 老公,我们结婚都已经三年了,我想我是撑不住了,我不在后,你要好好生活,炖汤的食谱都在电脑里,咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面,一切都为你准备好了,你要好好学着照顾自己。 ”

“ 老公,如果你一天看一个录影,现在已经三年了,你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧?是时候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了,你的人生还很漫长,找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。 ”

“ 老公,应该是这几天了,我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个影片吧,看到这里你也累坏了啦,我也很累了,是时候离开了。记得,好好继续生活啊。你还记得吗?你说过你会爱我一辈子的,我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在我们的诺言都实现了,我要离开了,我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了,你已经爱了我一辈子了,这样的我们,很幸福不是吗? ....... 最后一次了,老公,对不起,我爱你 .....”

看完了 1095 个影片,他不知道已经过了多久,泪水流了又干,干了又流。

打开窗帘,温暖的阳光照了进来,他对着晴朗的天空,轻轻说了句 ~"

“ 老婆,对不起,我爱你 ~”

Movies with Colleague

Saturday 13th June 2009

拖了那么久,终于写下另一篇了。
上个星期六,和同事去看了戏。
这次还是第一次一连看两场呢!
今天,Cheong和Hui Lee还是有OT,所以安排在六点。
先由Lucas和他的朋友去买戏票。
原本打算看Night at the Musuem的,可是因为六点多的座位满了,所以他们买了Drag me to hell的戏票。
然后他们看到十一点多的Night at the Musuem还有位,所以就买了那个时间的。
我跟Cheong的车,到了那里,票是六点半,等Weng Woy来了,才进去。
原本以为是鬼片,看了才知道,原来只是类似降头的东西,西方人称为诅咒。
剧情对我来说,是还蛮不错啦,只是拍摄手法真的很反胃。
细节我就不多说了,自己去看吧,还蛮不错的啦,哈哈哈哈。。。
看完时候才八点多,当然是吃晚餐咯。
讨论了很久,真是的,那班男生,怎么那么婆妈?
最后的决定,是去Kim Gary,不过我们都不知道怎么去,我们两个女生,就给四个男生带着绕花园。
吃了东西后,差不多十点了,不过离下一场还有一个半小时。
这个时间大多数的商店都关了,所以只有像上次一样,到保龄球场。
原本他们是打算打保龄球,只是因为太多人了,所以就去打桌球了。
进到去,差不多所有人都是抽烟的,而且一杯水要六元,真的是好贵啊。
呆了一会儿,真的太烟了,所以就和Hui Lee到外面去。
差不多时间的时候,他们说在游戏机场,所以就去找他们。
终于等到时间了。
不过位子不是很好,放脚的空隙太小了。
而且,Night at the Musuem 1 好像比较好看哦。
是有点失望啦。
没有我想象中的那么吸引我,呵呵。。

有空可以去看看Drag me to Hell,真的蛮不错的,呵呵,别吓到就好。
不过好像好笑多过恐怖,也可以说不恐怖吧,只是很恶心。

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Speechless~

What kind of people is this?
After get a supervisor, now told me want out from this group.
Means I doing alone, a very common topic, but very large scope.
Even god in this subject also said scare to take this.

Huh~~~
Too angry already.

I won't mention any name here.
At the beginning, some of us were met the same lecturer, to be our supervisor, this Monday.
All of us didn't prepare the proposal to the lecturer, just met her for some advise on our topic.
She asked us to do the proposal and submit to her, only she decide want to take us or not.
Then, for sure we all prepare the proposal to be viewed by lecturer.
Yesterday, me and my group member, call her A, we done our proposal and email it to the lecturer.
After awhile, the lecturer replied us, approved our proposal.
And by that time, she also approved some student which go for her.
One of the student, I call him B, he met the lecturer yesterday and the lecturer straight away approve his proposal.
But before B met the lecturer, he asked the lecturer's phone number from me.
So I just gave him, because everyone deserve to have her number. The lecturer also asked people to call her.

Today, the problem arise.
Actually this is not a problem!!
A asked me, did I gave the lecturer's handphone to B.
I said yes. Asked her why, she said nothing.
But her face is very sad, angry, all mix up lar, and looks like want cry already.
I roughly can guess what happen already.
Then she told me, C, a guy that she close with, cannot get the lecturer as supervisor, because the the supervisor reach the limit already.
After she told me this, she said she want out. =.=
Left me doing this system alone.
This is a very large system, how can I handle both client n server side on my own?
What she mean, is very obvious that, I give the lecturer's handphone number to B and C cannot get that supervisor is my fault.
Then the next class, her face so... And disappear when the class having a break.

What is all these?
Why got people like this?
So impetuous.
I was very angry. But what can I do?
Some friends suggest me change the partner.
But, at last, I also same group together with her. @@

Calming down now.......

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

【心情篇】压力

新的学期开始咯~
压力也开始跟着来了。

挣扎了一个星期,
终于交了计划书,
终于找到了supervisor。

上个星期,
姐姐妹妹和表妹从大老远,
来这里看我。
其实应该是很开心的事情。
只是,
发生了一些插曲,
让那几天过得都很不愉快。

这几天头都好疼,
疼到好像把眼睛给挖出来,
再加上FYP的压力,
这些日子真的好不过啊。

难熬的日子,
还长着呢,
怎么熬过呢?

不只是学业的压力,
还有家里无形的压力。
就像今天,
和朋友在讨论着计划书的时候,
接到家里的电话,
发生了点小状况。

不只是今天,
昨天的事情更严重。
和朋友讨论的过程中,
接到家里的电话,
心情已经很差了,
又听到这样的消息。
关了电话,
又要很快让自己的心情恢复,
投入讨论中,
真是痛苦啊,
根本没有时间喘气。

这个学期真是,
压力压力啊,
怎么办?
有什么方法能减轻压力?
又要回到濒临疯狂的日子了~@@

Thursday, June 4, 2009

【心情篇】改变

新的学期开始咯~
当然有开心也有不开心的。
开心呢,
是因为可以在遇到好久不见的朋友,
不开心呢,
当然是因为又要开始地狱式的生活了。

在家里的那段时间,
心情时起时落。
写了一些很悲观的部落格。
不过,
我想自己因该不会再些类似的部落格了吧。
因为在家里,
听到了一些,
之前伤透我的心的话,
原来,
家人也是这样看我的。

有朋友说,
你在部落格里写的那么可怜,
让我们觉得你是在博同情。
朋友不懂我,
我无话可说。
可是原来连家人,
也是这么想的。
msn里写的句子,
让他们觉得我要让人觉得我很可怜。

其实并不是的,
我只是想发泄,
每个人发泄的管道不一样,
而我就是把它写出来。
你可以不认同我这么做,
但是为什么又要对我做出这样的指控呢?

原来到最后,
真正能够让我毫无避忌的写上去的地方,
也只有属于我自己的私人部落格了。
那里没有我认识的人,
隐姓埋名,
或许这样就不会再面对不必要的指控了吧。

现在的我,
有点怀念实习时的生活,
想念那里的朋友。
回到校园,
才发现自己真的很厌倦了,
厌倦这样势利的友谊。
成绩不算是上等的我,
assignment需要组别的时候,
总是让人丢来丢去。
并不是我不做东西,
而是他们担心我会做不好,
而连累他们。

大学的生活,
和实习的生活比起来,
成了极大的对比。
谁说大学生活是天真的,
是单纯的?
大学的生活,
似乎比现实来的恐怖,
只少了金钱的纠缠。

是时候改变了,
改变什么呢?
呵呵,
自己也不是很清楚。
只知道现在的我,
害怕这个学期追不上,
害怕会不及格,
害怕FYP选不对题目和supervisor。
压力、害怕,怎么办?

NeW SeM

Hmm~
Finally, new semester start.
Long time didn't update my blog already.
First day start new sem, 5 hours break after the first class.
So we went for movie, Terminator Salvation.
The next day, Tuesday, Yap treat us lunch because Weng Woy was last day in CSC.
So we all went to New Paris and had dinner until 2pm.
来张全家福吧~不过少了一些人 ^o^

After lunch, me and Eddie stay awhile in MRC because our class start at 3pm.
Meet Chris that time, he is standby at Philip Morris. Won't come back often.
Didn't think to meet him at office. Took picture with him. Weng Woy also.

Tonight, we had farewell with Weng Woy at Station 1 (Jaya One).
After the dinner, we planed to go for movie.
But some of them didn't join, so just left me, Lucas, Weng Woy, Cheong, Phuah, Kelvin.
We took some picture before the movie start at McD.

Wednesday, there are 2 hours break. So decided go back to MRC again because want take the ticket from Kelvin.
Ong still in office. So ask him to take picture. Hehe..

Since the night before going movie with Weng Woy them until 2pm only reach home, so I very tired and didn't join Huwi Yee birthday party. So sorry ar, Huwi Yee.
But hope you like the present lar.. Hehe..


New Sem, but still didn't have mood to start study yet.
Charm lor..
Wish can get my study mood as soon as possible.
This semester will be a very tough semester for me.
T.T